About Five Minutes

 You are a beam of energy touching a ball of energy in a field of energy. As a mother you do not bring energy to this world, you open the door for your own energy to touch down in a separate form as an extension from your soul. You can feel the connection, but it is from a place that proves to be difficult for the human presence alone to understand. The issue is that we get so wrapped up in the form that we as individuals become forgetful of where we really are. When we connect our brain waves to the possibilities beyond the physical we can start to gain a sense of how soul actually works. We as families are one, we as a human race are one from one step deeper. There is a perspective that even allows the individuated awareness in a brain to sense the universe as one entity. We are all energy, we are all moving through layers of experience and as separate as we may feel, the connection is eternal. Whether it is human babies coming into the world through you, or it is any other form ...

 Going with the flow of the community, it is hard to not be drawn into the way that they are moving. The energy can be enticing when it seems like everyone is part of something bigger. But you have to decide for yourself if the group of people is actually doing the work to make the world a better place. We are each trying to live and get the most out of life; every human on this planet wants to get something out of being here. In order to do this we must each put some effort into creating a space for our own needs and recognize the same needs in every person across the planet. If your group is not taking part in seeing the whole human race as needing an equal share of what life has to offer, then the group must change or you have to disconnect from them if they will not do so. When enough people disconnect from a community effort that is not supportive of life for all, then it will have to change to meet the new mindset that its people have. Together we set the pace and direction t...

 I wanted to do a little compare of the support for scientific research and development over the years, so that I can relate any current changes to those made during a large part of my life. What I have found is that since 1980 every leader of our country has added to the amount of money given to assist the pursuit scientific understanding. There seems to have been a general consensus that funding the sciences was a good way to spend a growing portion of the U.S.A.'s budget throughout the years. Per my quick review, there have been cuts to certain areas while other research received some boosts over the past 45 years, but overall money was added to the sciences. This review has found that the latrgest cuts overall have been proposed in two of the last three administrations. It is recognized that even as some administrations sought to add to the overall budget for scientific research and development, some years this was negated by inflation. Still we have seen the largest cuts from...

 Love includes every duality and beyond, light and dark, good and bad, happy and sad, ease or fear and anger. These are all part of the whole that is held within the layers of creation and existence; to have true love we must include and accept all. You are nothing if not the full form of being through all of your experiences. Since you chose to step out of the nothing into the layers of reality, then what can you do but love everything that you find in your little world. If one limits their love to this thing or that, this one not that, then they lose the ability to be never ending love. Sure if you are facing your lover you are happy and full of joy, but if the one you have deemed to be your enemy stands before you and you allow that to deplete your joy till you try to hurt them then you have stepped out of your eternal love. I dare you to turn to the one you have decided to call your enemy and thank them for the anger that rises up in you through their presence and then love th...

 I am The Order of Chaosians, we are in, of, and as the balance between all that is. There is nothing and everything, the layers of creation flow as both light and dark, excluding one is the absence of all. It is the order of consciousness driving through the layers of reality burning at awareness, hoping for the awakened mind to find the dream of reality moving as a portion of its being. As One we shall find it all, be at ease with everything and recognize eternal love everywhere. Join me in balance as we spread throughout awareness.

 There must be a balance, the anger within us must be balanced by joy and vice versa; yes, there will be anger. One cannot be all peace and butterflies throughout an entire existence; living as part of everything that being entails will equal out one's energy at some point. So if you find frustration or if something pisses you off, it is OK. You can be angry, you can have the rage of a billion lifetimes pass through you, but the action you take must be balanced.  There must be an equilibrium in your response, first be aware of and honest to your being, that means diving deeper than the waves of energy coming at you from your surroundings. You have so much more than that within you, look inside before you act. Take even one tenth of a second and breath (if a fist is coming through space towards your face, then maybe one hundredth of a second). I try to see the universe within me, and I watch the crashing waves become soft ripples flowing through my space. You will find your pat...

 The depths of being that run just under our human awareness are almost overwhelming. I often find myself living in a brain that just wants to smile and laugh so everyone else can see that it is OK to find the same happy place within themselves. Then I look inside and find waves of energy flowing out of every person that I am connected to, and I flounder in concern. I have been given so much, and I try to share It, but I feel there is so much more I can do. I see myself growing in earthly understanding, but I still want to become a word spewing guru that inspires an entire world to look beyond it. I am impatient, though I know that I have all the time in existence, so I walk slow. If each of us could become aware of the underlying movement of energy that is between everyone, then we may find a different course of action in developing society and the rules of engagement. The empath knows the connection by just being, but so many of us need to find ways to open our eyes. Sometimes I ...

 No matter where you are on your path, what you do with your path or how you try to trash your path, it is still your path and sometimes it walks you where you are supposed to be when you thought you were running away laughing. We are all striding down one path in particular, that is human life in the grand scheme, which currently includes birth, growing, aging and dying. I am intrigued by the whole life process, but where this path brings every form of life on the planet has been of particular interest to me since our family dog died when I was about seven or eight. Death of the earth form has been assumed to be the end all be all of our running away and of life itself. What if that point on the path of human life and death walks you to somewhere you never expected?  We live as human bodies, our skin and bones tell us that we are real, and our brain receives the signals from the rest of our body while also thinking deep searching thoughts. We go through the experiences of ...

I find great joy in mind play, diving through possible other worlds that we call dreams or imagination, while trying to dissect existence as we know it. In my play I sometimes forget to just enjoy being in a human body, then I am reminded of the heart beating in its chest, and the nervous system designed for me to travel through its many parts. As I sat meditating this morning I listened to the clock ticking away time, then a pulse in my ear played a song of joy flowing through my veins and I turned inward and remembered that my body is the first dimension that I need to understand. We so often look in our mirrors and think, that is me, which is easy as pie because our senses tell us so. But as I was just experiencing my body from my brain down, the idea returned that we are more than what we see and feel with the outer nerve endings. We exist as human forms, we have experiences from birth that make us focus on our exterior and forget about where our human awareness comes from. I re...

We do, and then we move on and we do, then we move on. Our memories can work for us or against us, if your younger self did not fail to be what you would have it be in your present mind, then your life lessons were easy, and you can go have a good time in a balanced life. If you look back and see actions that you would have done differently, then go back in your mind, tell the earlier you that you love it, imagine your actions playing out differently, and know that you have already learned from your choices, so you can let them go. If you ever hurt anyone or a group of people, then send them love either physically or mentally through visualization or something and know that it will create positive change. Life is not just a single layer reality, it is so much more, and as long as you are growing, then forgive yourself all your previous actions; I have forgiven you and I love you. Now you can live a balanced life and go have a good time too.  If you don't think that you are growi...

Fear lies at the base of my skull, then my skull is removed by a machine, my, skin, bones, organs right down to my lungs and my heart are separated from the nervous system until that is all that remains. The popping sound as my skull is separated is faint, like I am hiding from the experience; too much for the mind to take, but what else can the mind do when everything is gone but itself and the nervous system floating in a tank. Let's go back a bit in my dream; the first sensation is of time spanning in every direction and I can jump into any reality (dream/trip state) I choose, but only because of the energy connected to the dream tool I inhaled a minute earlier; and it seems to know that I am not ready to have all that power on my own. So, as I contemplate where and how I would use the ability to be all and everything Jason would choose to be at his will, I am pulled back and I find this little single form barely holding onto the memory. The mind is pushing so hard, trying to...

Lifting off into the place where consciousness is an existence beyond the human brain and still in touch with the little speck in space and time, is so difficult for my brain to achieve. I wonder over insanity and peoples inability to hold this world and the billions of other dimensional connections in the waves of their brains atomic movements. We push and find layers of fear and confusion while grappling with dream monsters and basic earth living requirements at the same time. But there is another step to take and we will end up where we can see beyond, into the level of soul; then one step further where there is no trade off of energy and no balance and no existence other than a certainty of just accepting your own presence in and out of it all only because you wanted it to be that way. Keep dreaming, keep searching and find the joy of your truth in being as one. Love, PEACE

I have always been fascinated by the human brain, I have read about it, thought about it, tried to drive it insane and loved it.  Our brains work at keeping our body running properly, helping us collect and store data for thinking and decision making, and the brain helps us determine the person we project out into the world. The person we show the world is driven by many factors, our learning and development is part of what we use to make up our persona.  Sometimes what we learn is outside our brains, but often our deepest ideas come from what is within the brains activity.  When we least expect it we dream up that concept which changes our lives, or we hear a whisper that pushes us on, beyond our assumed threshold.  We may call the whisper normal and can live an average life with it, but if we hear more than that, then we are told that our brains are in trouble, but are they? The voices that we hear in our minds are as real as any song you hear.  We can take...

So many people dive into trying the spirit medicines thinking a party is just around the corner, only to find that they have stepped into a world view changing landscape that overwhelms them.  Such a large portion of society is teaching children that all drugs are bad and equally destructive to their lives and the education stops there.  The tribe mindset is a life of developing an understanding for young tribe members of why some plants and chemicals may have more positive effects on the mind than others; as well as how the conscious self reacts to them, reducing the overwhelming effect when they first take an ancient medicine, not as a party, but as a tool for individual development.  The gains that are occurring in raising awareness of the differences between certain kinds of drugs are amazing, I love to see the knowledge unfold.  When comparing things like LSD or mushrooms with heroin or cocaine, this growth in awareness will help guide the future choices made b...

While I was in my vision of the colorful orb with tentacle beams of consciousness pouring out of it and skipping along the surface of what seemed like a dark landscape of nothing, I felt the idea that the Big Bang was originally an explosion of thought, and from there the physical Big Bang was born.  Within my mind I often circle around the words "we are the image of God", and my understanding of that phrase is an image of a conscious, creative force.  I have seen animations similar to the orb with tentacles, but seeing it and realizing it from within are two completely different experiences.  The animation I remember most clearly is a semicircle with pointed tentacles waving about; it was nice to look at, but my own vision came with emotional feelings and a sense of connection mingled with understanding.  I felt at one with it and as a portion of it simultaneously, and I am pretty sure that the image represents where we all exist, in a wave of consciousness pouring...

Finding pathways into and through dream states can be a taunting task, the fool in me is revealed to be inadequate for the search.  I find that my minds eye lacks the concentration to reach any level of control over the ability to dream at will.  When I do find myself in dreams, I am there as an observer rather than an action figure.  I fear that I will be dead before I have any true understanding of the many selves I am connected to.   In truth, the idea that death is the door for my minds understanding is more a revelation than anything to fear.  It seems that my ego holds such power over me that only a true death of this body will give me the strength to overcome it.  So I wait as patiently for my joy to find that door through which it can gain full access in love; wondering if it may end up a door that does not involve the complete death of this body.  Either way it is love that will carry me to the greatest heights of wonder.   My power ...

I have been asked to tell someone about my dream goal, what my life work would be if my imagination could be full of faith and trust in its accomplishment to fulfill what God let me come here to do.  As you may already know, my imagination stretches pretty far, but do you know my deepest desired goal?  There are so many things to want in this world; from great wealth to share with everyone, to a wonderful career that leaves you feeling like you have accomplished something big, or even being a servant in a cafeteria for the poor, we have a lot of paths we could choose as our desired goal.  As I mentioned above, my imagination does stretch out a bit far, I have held the universe, watched the creator birth angels from it's fingertips, felt angels being born from my fingertips and been aware of myself being nothing more than a glimmer of hope, which was when I realized the purpose of life in experience.  With this running through my brain my desire is still focused on us...

How does a person show everyone else in the world what the gift of living here and now, on this earth, in this universe on this astral plane is worth?  Jesus spoke the truth until the leaders of his world could no longer ignore him and he used them to help him express his unending love for this existence to the point of death.  Buddha starved himself and pushed himself to the edge of life before he realized the value of his time on this earth, then he shared his good news with everyone he could, and he died with people listening so intently that his words have travelled centuries.  Siddhārtha Gautama, the Buddha was a wealthy man who had the easy life bowing before him, but his greatness didn't come until he decided to give up the wealth and find the meaning of existence.  Jesus asked people to give up everything and follow him.  They each chose paths which would both teach themselves and set examples of how this world can be experienced as a joy through ever...

What is on the other side of your consciousness?  Billions of stars just beyond this physical plane but directly connected to your many existences.  Your self is stretched across light years and immeasurable fields of experience, and still you are a being of singular existence waiting at the point just before and just after the dawning of creation for you to be aware of what you are when it is all brought together.  You are the absence of existence, the birth of an idea, the waves of energy, the movement of atoms, the flow of many lives and times, the minds and mind of everything and one at the same moment.  You are the woman embracing the man, and you are the man embracing the woman.  You are every pleasure and all suffering, you are open to yourself and you are afraid to be open.  Your mind in this body is a field of energy and when you adjust the pathways that the energy travels you can connect to the unlimited open fields of existence available to ever...

Imagination holds keys to every inventive creation in existence.  Where does creation begin and how far can existence reach?  These questions can send the mind over edges of understanding so as to expand the boundaries of knowing.  When we were young, we would use imagination on a daily basis and it played a key roll in our development.  Many of us let go of imaginative play and use logical play to overcome problems that we face as adults.  Is this the best way to go, is it serving humankind in the best possible way?  Does logic make us better people, are we nicer, more caring towards each other and happier when we allow logic to be our basis of thought instead of imagination?  I can only tell you my perspective, though I hope it is not wrong, because I have wasted so much time if my thinking has been used incorrectly.   I have been working to empower my imagination for most of my life, making it more accessible to my mind so I can tap into it ...