About Five Minutes

 It is OK to recognize dark thoughts and feelings within yourself. It is OK to think of horrible things, we all have the darkest and most gruesome ideas pass through us once in a while. Anyone who denies it is only denying a portion of the truth in all existence; they are going to need space to grow. We want to be all light and love. When we recognize the layers of reality within each of us, is when we can see that the dark thoughts and ideas are a tiny portion of our selves. The human can feel these things so strongly that we can worry over what we might do, or just want to do it and see what happens. It is perfectly natural for our brains, with billions of neurons and our minds that are connected through the subconscious to thousands or millions of lives, to have some bad thoughts flow through. This does not make anyone a monster, and acting on these thoughts is not what the deeper layers of your self wants, but it understands and you can find love beyond them if you were to slip...

 It is 2025, are you earning $100,000 or more per year? I say that if you are making that much money and you are not living comfortably with the ability to have some extras here and there, then you are doing it wrong. An individual earning $100,000 or more per year can live in comfort, have some nice toys and get in some travel if they are using their money correctly. You can get a good quality place to live and a nice car, used if you choose to be frugal, feed yourself and any family whole foods while also playing some. You should be doing pretty well as an individual alone or as a parent earning $100,000 per year. I see a way for you to continue to grow and for everyone who works with you to begin to get closer to that place of comfort a little more quickly as well. In most companies we each expect a raise if we feel like we have done a good job. That raise is usually 2% or more depending on how well you did. You deserve that raise, I understand that, and no one should take it a...

 As a portion of everything I recognize that I include light within the full spanse of my being and it helps to create the great layers of existence that are available for us all to be. But I am not fooled by what energy is and how the layers of experiential forms take on their own roll and follow individuated paths with light and dark moving through them. We are all a combination pack just by being. I am the deepest depth of non existence and I am all possibilities of whatever creative play can bring awareness to that point. As form I will find an end and decay will begin, if things go right the remains will be burned up and reconnected to the earth. If I end up being buried without extra chemicals being added that would be fine too, just for the clean earth connection. But along the way to that point I will experience life in many ways. My life has included cuts, bruises, broken bones and many different physical pains. I have felt depression, sadness, fear and everything that c...

 We exist on this planet, we are a community spread across the land and sea. We are humans working together with what the world has to offer, in the societies that we are part of. No matter what, we are a part of it all, and we have to choose our own perspective which can determine our level of happiness. You have to make an effort either way you go. You either have to work on something in society and use some of your energy to complain about why you hate your work, life, society, etc. I will warn you, this group does not often grow. The people I know like this have often been in the same place for a long time and have only inspired others to grow so they could get away from the complaining. The other option is to work on something in society, and use some of your energy to take steps towards a job or goal that will make you a little bit happier. The action you take will often create small steps and once in a while you will have to jump to get closer to your desired outcome. Wh...

 Finding the path in your mind that will allow your consciousness to be aware of more than one possibility. Finding the power of your self within the mind you are tapped into on this earth in this space and time. How far back can you go, resetting a lifetime to experience other possibilities. Then looking forward from this moment and letting your imagination see and feel one, five, fifty or five thousand possible lifetime outcomes.  The options are endless if you can be aware of the fact that you are connected to a brain, drifting in outer space, living on a different planet, making different choices at age 8, 15, 19, 23 just to see what plays out. Finding that place in this brain where you can move through it all over a course of a night time's dreams, and eventually in a ten minute meditation.  Your brain has everything it needs to span the possibilities. Stretch and play with your imagination and dreams, be aware of all the options, your brain can imagine all, everythi...

 From the mind, aware that it is still connected to a body, I see world's of old, I feel the faces of past and distant selves. There are so many options, so many different paths that could have been taken; travel with dad, a different type of education, never running from love; I imagine so many ways it could have been. But then flowers open around me and beauty fills my being and I know that I am happy here in this mind as it is. I will be happy in it for as long as it lives. I have control over the space and time rolling in my mind, my brain flickers in and out of awareness as I try to stretch further to see into other space. You have the power to imagine so many other lifetimes, your mind can create worlds with various layers of love and connection. Then you can use that visualization to create change in your now. Seeing possibilities in the various types of life perfection over and over again in your mind can bring forth waves of development in this world, as you may begin str...

 I've dealt with my inner demons, the first time that I met them I chased them down, kicked them around, and I tried to show them who was boss. After a while I realized that the energy I was using to try and get rid of them was going to waste, and too big an effort to keep up. I started to wonder what would happen if maybe I started to listen to them, and considered letting them guide me. So I started looking at myself from different angles and I began to recognize that the so called demons had always just been there. I saw them in things like, that inner rage that I carried through my childhood, and my desire for power and control that took me so long to recognize. There were many aspects of my life that slowly revealed the truth of a scary side of me.  Seeing all of this and trying to figure out how to deal with it, I found that I could express my inner evil through writing. I have written some harsh stories; most of which are in my first journal, "Where Faith Can Grow"...

 You are not designed for suffering, there is no reason to have a life of continued sadness, there is no need for sacrifice. Your life is designed for experiences, and they vary from person to person based on the body you have and the brain signalling in your head. You get to have a life that is full of ease, energy and action in experience. But we allow our paths to be broken and seem to put obstacles in our own way. A life of ease does not mean that you are built for sitting all day being entertained. Ease of being means that while you are a productive and creative person, you allow yourself time to think, move with intent outside of your work, and breath. We thrive when we feel like we are participating in creating, whether the creation is a work of art or a better business plan for a company. With this in mind we must also remember that we feel our best when we are allowed the space to stand back and take a breath after and during our work time. Breathing can simply be time to...

 The depths of being that run just under our human awareness are almost overwhelming. I often find myself living in a brain that just wants to smile and laugh so everyone else can see that it is OK to find the same happy place within themselves. Then I look inside and find waves of energy flowing out of every person that I am connected to, and I flounder in concern. I have been given so much, and I try to share It, but I feel there is so much more I can do. I see myself growing in earthly understanding, but I still want to become a word spewing guru that inspires an entire world to look beyond it. I am impatient, though I know that I have all the time in existence, so I walk slow. If each of us could become aware of the underlying movement of energy that is between everyone, then we may find a different course of action in developing society and the rules of engagement. The empath knows the connection by just being, but so many of us need to find ways to open our eyes. Sometimes I ...

 There are theories of mind-brain connections and separations stretched across the globe and time. Some say the brain is where all your awareness, consciousness and being comes from; while others are sure that there is a consciousness that is beyond the brain. I stand in the conscious energy beyond my brain and ponder this also, attepting to explain how we work in the most down to earth terms. This is not that explanation. The brain stands as both the gate and the way to being in touch with your conscious self, the energy beyond atomic structure. You and I are not from here, we exist in a state of being that allows us to tap into the multitude of physical worlds and play out various lives. It is in this state that we are certain of the glory and wonder of all that Allah is. As the Mahabharata states Brahman poured itself out, and from nothing God created everything. Knowing all that creation is, opens us to pure joy in just being, because we know that we are a part of it all. Op...

 Ignorance can be a fire in the darkness of hell. I truly knew bliss when I was a child living for the moment, happily breathing and eating as my parents supported me, my brother and sisters. Challenges came; potty training, reaching door handles, learning to ride a bike, finding out how to not shut my fingers in the door, which took a while, and finally a lifetime of growing my brains understanding. At one point I knew everything, OK, I thought I knew everything and that was when I didn't know how much I had to learn. I was a man sized child and I was in a bit of a hell that I created for myself through having great ignorance. I look back and I love that young man, I love him because he never really stopped digging, despite that knowing of everything, and because he grew into what I find in this mind today. But there was hell to pay for attempting ignorance by assuming to have all the answers, and I did face my inner darkness, and standing in front of it I grew to find that it was...

 My journey has been and will continue to be guided by the source of being. I have been given gifts and more gifts by God and one of those is that I love all there is to be loved. Another gift is the patience to allow existence to work in, around and through me at the pace of itself. You see, I asked for something from God over thirty years ago, and I am still waiting to understand what it means to live that gift in love. God chooses time and recipients wisely, it is our job to wait for that wisdom to reach us. I say us because we are all connected. Your presence in my life is a part of my love, and I do cherish the gift you bring. Thank you for being a portion of the whole which we each hold within our body and soul. To fully understand that presence as one self within all that exists, that is a power unsurpassed. To love the freedom in allowing each portion to let go and let that power move through themselves without interference or to try their hand at controlling it, that is t...

 Being a portion of a wave of energy in the multiverse, we each have the power to be aware of everything. From my position I look back at our planet, the mother earth, and I see life spanning centuries to reach us here and now. A planet born out of the energy of a star, going through changes, fires, bubbling molten stone from her core and getting pelted by free flying asteroids and other types of solar moons. But through this all the earth has developed and expanded her ability to think, using an evolution playing out on her surface, that she hopes will eventually result in her existence being taken out into the vastness of space and time through our abilities. We will project ourselves out beyond the solar system, floating off like spores prepared to seed other worlds. We will not be here forever, there is more for us out there. Love, PEACE

 As we drift, free floating orbit within free floating orbit, and so on into the depths of the universe, I see layers of all reality peeling away within and without. We can stretch our minds out across the universe, out beyond the galaxies and beyond any possible edge, until we find ourselves looking into a base structure that allows for varying wavelengths of perception to create what can be pictured as an onion form of space-time continuums. Choose a layer and step into a form that can perceive the grouping of wavelengths and experience the reality it brings.  You are more than just a human on earth, we are more than humans in space. We have access to so many lives and the forms to live them through await our opening up to their senses and allowing ourselves to enter the various worlds in the multiverse. Available to us at the tips of our energy, our brains hold the keys as we learn to change what they are allowing in. In error, we live from form out, assuming that the self ...

 The seasons of our world vary across it's vast surface, and each variety offers its own wonders. In some areas one may find a slowing down with snow, a rebirth with the rains, bright colors under the sun and then the pleasing coolness of cloud covered skies as leaves fall. While in other places there will be what may seem like a continuous sunny day all year round. As different as the valley can be from the mountain top, and the poles from the equator, so too the weather systems vary over the land and in its seas.  People also come with a variety of seasons; sometimes we are warm and sunny, inviting people into our moment with a smile. Other times we can be cold and rain down on the feelings or experiences of those around us. The way we interact with people can express the season of our emotional state, and often it will. But we can have emotions and still allow people to have their own experiences in any given moment that they find themselves, even when they are in our proxi...

It is hard to look at someone who seems to be acting out in a prejudice way and think that they deserve love. It is difficult to listen to language that speaks against another person or group and find care in your heart for the person behind the voice. It can feel like they are purposefully building walls to block you from having a view or opinion that is different from their own and to find a way to connect to one another. But as soon as you stop telling them your story and sharing your thoughts with them in a calm reminding way, then you are putting up walls too.  If you were taught that a certain group of people is less than you from your early childhood, then it will be difficult for you to change that belief without interacting with people that can open your eyes to a more balanced view. Sometimes a person with a prejudice towards a group of people will get to know someone from that group and they will learn to recognize their equality. But often it is their peers that will ha...

Mahatma Gandhi was quoted: "An eye for eye only ends up making the whole world blind. Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony. The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong. Where there is love there is life. In a gentle way, you can shake the world. The future depends on what we do in the present." This man is said to have had quite an affect on the world. It seems he got results through intelligent speach, peaceful protest, peaceful despite action taken against him and his community, and his own calm action.  On the other hand we see that wars have been waged for centuries, anger and violence poured out from one group to another; often leaving greater poverty in the wake of such actions. We are good at destroying each other with words and violent force, but it often destroys both sides in various ways. My faith lies in balance, intelligence and action that builds a world of peace around each of us as an individ...

I find that fear can be so much fun, I mean I hate it when it hits me, but the laughs after are excellent. Fear is a game and it can be played with a smile. In the song 'Innocense' Bjork mentions the ease of being fearless, and then she tries to explain the joy of realizing fear again. If we dive into experiences and taste lifes fullness, we will best recognize the purpose and wonder of fear. We quickly develop a fear of heights as babies, and many more fears work their way into our minds as we grow up. We each work through fears at our own pace, and it is the fears that we have overcome which empower us and move us to new challenges. Some fears should be respected even if they lose their grip on us. You may grow to be comfortable standing on a steel beam 44 stories above the ground, but you should still wear a harness and tether for the occasional slip. We should have a bit of discomfort looking into the eyes of a tiger and there should be a fear that keeps you from walking up...

The dynamics of the mind allow for consciousness to rest parts of the brain that are used to remain aware of this reality, letting go of control completely so the body is in charge of everything; the bladder, the bowels, keeping lungs breathing and the heart beating while we lay unaware. However advancing the power we hold over our minds we can open up more possibilities, in that we can lay aside half of our brain for the pleasure of dreaming worlds, creatures and imaginings of all sorts being wrapped into our awareness while remaining awake to the activities that this body is taking part in. The brains capacity for multilayered thinking is the goal at hand, the body has limits based on realities flow of energy, as created for this level of experiential play. These limits however are entwined within each of our minds.  Can the limits of flesh reality be overridden by awareness? We are energy, to be able to pour enough of ourselves into being energy, focusing on the movement of o...

I find great joy in mind play, diving through possible other worlds that we call dreams or imagination, while trying to dissect existence as we know it. In my play I sometimes forget to just enjoy being in a human body, then I am reminded of the heart beating in its chest, and the nervous system designed for me to travel through its many parts. As I sat meditating this morning I listened to the clock ticking away time, then a pulse in my ear played a song of joy flowing through my veins and I turned inward and remembered that my body is the first dimension that I need to understand. We so often look in our mirrors and think, that is me, which is easy as pie because our senses tell us so. But as I was just experiencing my body from my brain down, the idea returned that we are more than what we see and feel with the outer nerve endings. We exist as human forms, we have experiences from birth that make us focus on our exterior and forget about where our human awareness comes from. I re...