About Five Minutes

 I've dealt with my inner demons, the first time that I met them I chased them down, kicked them around, and I tried to show them who was boss. After a while I realized that the energy I was using to try and get rid of them was going to waste, and too big an effort to keep up. I started to wonder what would happen if maybe I started to listen to them, and considered letting them guide me. So I started looking at myself from different angles and I began to recognize that the so called demons had always just been there. I saw them in things like, that inner rage that I carried through my childhood, and my desire for power and control that took me so long to recognize. There were many aspects of my life that slowly revealed the truth of a scary side of me.  Seeing all of this and trying to figure out how to deal with it, I found that I could express my inner evil through writing. I have written some harsh stories; most of which are in my first journal, "Where Faith Can Grow"...

 You are not designed for suffering, there is no reason to have a life of continued sadness, there is no need for sacrifice. Your life is designed for experiences, and they vary from person to person based on the body you have and the brain signalling in your head. You get to have a life that is full of ease, energy and action in experience. But we allow our paths to be broken and seem to put obstacles in our own way. A life of ease does not mean that you are built for sitting all day being entertained. Ease of being means that while you are a productive and creative person, you allow yourself time to think, move with intent outside of your work, and breath. We thrive when we feel like we are participating in creating, whether the creation is a work of art or a better business plan for a company. With this in mind we must also remember that we feel our best when we are allowed the space to stand back and take a breath after and during our work time. Breathing can simply be time to...

 My journey has been and will continue to be guided by the source of being. I have been given gifts and more gifts by God and one of those is that I love all there is to be loved. Another gift is the patience to allow existence to work in, around and through me at the pace of itself. You see, I asked for something from God over thirty years ago, and I am still waiting to understand what it means to live that gift in love. God chooses time and recipients wisely, it is our job to wait for that wisdom to reach us. I say us because we are all connected. Your presence in my life is a part of my love, and I do cherish the gift you bring. Thank you for being a portion of the whole which we each hold within our body and soul. To fully understand that presence as one self within all that exists, that is a power unsurpassed. To love the freedom in allowing each portion to let go and let that power move through themselves without interference or to try their hand at controlling it, that is t...

 As we drift, free floating orbit within free floating orbit, and so on into the depths of the universe, I see layers of all reality peeling away within and without. We can stretch our minds out across the universe, out beyond the galaxies and beyond any possible edge, until we find ourselves looking into a base structure that allows for varying wavelengths of perception to create what can be pictured as an onion form of space-time continuums. Choose a layer and step into a form that can perceive the grouping of wavelengths and experience the reality it brings.  You are more than just a human on earth, we are more than humans in space. We have access to so many lives and the forms to live them through await our opening up to their senses and allowing ourselves to enter the various worlds in the multiverse. Available to us at the tips of our energy, our brains hold the keys as we learn to change what they are allowing in. In error, we live from form out, assuming that the self ...

It is hard to look at someone who seems to be acting out in a prejudice way and think that they deserve love. It is difficult to listen to language that speaks against another person or group and find care in your heart for the person behind the voice. It can feel like they are purposefully building walls to block you from having a view or opinion that is different from their own and to find a way to connect to one another. But as soon as you stop telling them your story and sharing your thoughts with them in a calm reminding way, then you are putting up walls too.  If you were taught that a certain group of people is less than you from your early childhood, then it will be difficult for you to change that belief without interacting with people that can open your eyes to a more balanced view. Sometimes a person with a prejudice towards a group of people will get to know someone from that group and they will learn to recognize their equality. But often it is their peers that will ha...

My world is a state of awareness, it includes everything from experiences to the absence of being. In existence I love all action and absence of action, because it is all connected to me. On the Earth my conscious being seeks pleasurable interaction with it's surroundings, it  finds the greatest joy in a calm balanced environment. In loving all that comes to me, my love desires love in return. Every action is portion of the whole and can be loved for the experience it brings, but the action of love is the easiest to accept. Do your best to be love to me and I will do my best to be love to you. Together we will make calm balance.  Love, PEACE

I find that fear can be so much fun, I mean I hate it when it hits me, but the laughs after are excellent. Fear is a game and it can be played with a smile. In the song 'Innocense' Bjork mentions the ease of being fearless, and then she tries to explain the joy of realizing fear again. If we dive into experiences and taste lifes fullness, we will best recognize the purpose and wonder of fear. We quickly develop a fear of heights as babies, and many more fears work their way into our minds as we grow up. We each work through fears at our own pace, and it is the fears that we have overcome which empower us and move us to new challenges. Some fears should be respected even if they lose their grip on us. You may grow to be comfortable standing on a steel beam 44 stories above the ground, but you should still wear a harness and tether for the occasional slip. We should have a bit of discomfort looking into the eyes of a tiger and there should be a fear that keeps you from walking up...

The dynamics of the mind allow for consciousness to rest parts of the brain that are used to remain aware of this reality, letting go of control completely so the body is in charge of everything; the bladder, the bowels, keeping lungs breathing and the heart beating while we lay unaware. However advancing the power we hold over our minds we can open up more possibilities, in that we can lay aside half of our brain for the pleasure of dreaming worlds, creatures and imaginings of all sorts being wrapped into our awareness while remaining awake to the activities that this body is taking part in. The brains capacity for multilayered thinking is the goal at hand, the body has limits based on realities flow of energy, as created for this level of experiential play. These limits however are entwined within each of our minds.  Can the limits of flesh reality be overridden by awareness? We are energy, to be able to pour enough of ourselves into being energy, focusing on the movement of o...

I am trying, and I am trying to find the brain that allows many thoughts simultaneously and many waves of awareness. I am certain that the future holds it all available as reality, I am given glimpses and my hopes are floating in the clouds. I know it is coming, I see it through my soul, I know it is coming, but I must be calm and let it come as slow as it will. For my mind and body battle the knowledge of time and space, and they are vital warriors in existence. The mind itself is a landscape of moving energies, to dream in and out of being this one human while trying to be every other human I can be. I foresee death, the human body is frail at this level of being, but what if we can change the way it uses its atomic field. The mind is a space of energy waves passing atoms from point A to point B, you are able to become aware of this happening, because it is part of you. You are each point and you control how the energy travels in through the spaces. If you can slow your life down en...

The calm mind , distracted by the other mind, moved from its position of rest by someone else's desire. Balancing out your own thoughts is a challenge, take care when someone else's desire compounds your own. Live by the energy of existence, move with desires that come, but do not let them turn you down a path that makes you forget your balance. Let your inner child play in love as a child should, and remember that there can be simple balance in your actions.  Take rest when needed, but remember to be active in your experiences while being mindful of how you are interacting with the world. There are billions of reasons for you to move, so many activities for you to enjoy. Come and play, come and learn, come and live. We can sit and lose ourselves in digital distraction, we can focus on food and rest, then work passes by as the cycle goes on day by day. Being distracted from thinking and moving is easy, it is simple and can seem like fun because the mind feels stimulated, but...

When you realize that you are the first person in your life that you need to love, that is the moment that you will start to work in your best interest. We often spend so much of our lives seeking love from somewhere outside ourselves, and it can feel wonderful when we find someone who offers that, but it is not the love with the most power. When we love the person that we are, we open a door within that allows us to be the best person we can be, a person that can face every challenge.  We may find our soulmate, and it can be heaven on earth, a love that can carry us to the top of every mountain. However, if the connection fails to remain active between the two soulmates, then it can be devastating and that broken love may not carry you anywhere further than to being lost. A true love of the self that recognizes every flaw and all the perfection around each of those flaws is the most complete love at this level. If you can fully see yourself and still know that you deserve love,...

We do, and then we move on and we do, then we move on. Our memories can work for us or against us, if your younger self did not fail to be what you would have it be in your present mind, then your life lessons were easy, and you can go have a good time in a balanced life. If you look back and see actions that you would have done differently, then go back in your mind, tell the earlier you that you love it, imagine your actions playing out differently, and know that you have already learned from your choices, so you can let them go. If you ever hurt anyone or a group of people, then send them love either physically or mentally through visualization or something and know that it will create positive change. Life is not just a single layer reality, it is so much more, and as long as you are growing, then forgive yourself all your previous actions; I have forgiven you and I love you. Now you can live a balanced life and go have a good time too.  If you don't think that you are growi...

Every possibility in existence, every choice in time is within reach of your consciousness and imagination. How far and wide can you think? You are a brain, it has the power to imagine, dream, span space and time, as much space and time as you can learn about. The more you learn about existence, the deeper your thoughts and imagination can go. You have the power in your mind to imagine everything, where would you take yourself if you could imagine anything? Remember though, that care is needed when we start reaching for the stars, we are prone to grow power hungry.  The deeper you go, the more twisted you can become, there is a balance to it all, and if you walk carefully on this journey of consciousness, then you can keep yourself from becoming too negative or too positive of a person. In my imagination I could control everyone on the earth, play with their lives as if their consciousness meant nothing and their little human bodies were totally expendable. But there will be a b...

As one realizes that all power is a continuum stretching from out of the nothing through the source and the layers of reality into the conscious form, it becomes apparent that limitation is a one minded occurrence. Let go of the single self and be all selves. Reality and your dreams are constructed by your consciousness as the creator moving just beyond the limits of space and time tying the lines of the astral plane into your awareness. I stood in a room and watched as another form of myself built the world around me by organizing golden rods into the design of furniture, walls, images outside the window, etc. That form moved as fast as imagination allowed me to see it go. People have had visions of being a street, a wall ornament, a part of a sidewalk with a child treating them nicely. All of these visions are links into the self as everything, one portion of that is to realize that we are the layer of conscious energy that holds the framework of reality together. You are the person...

I decided to do a little Wim Hofing on my 15 minute break from work, I have one work at home day each week on Friday, so I was not doing this in my cubicle. I did the breathing and held my breath as recommended by Mr. Hof, and the first time I got the nice fresh feeling that often comes from this. The second time I reached the point of holding my breath I forgot that I was holding my breath. This happened because I became side tracked by an image in my view. A swirl of stars spun counter clockwise and within seconds I saw a flowering image of many colors in the center, it was like petals growing and unfolding until it changed into something else. It became the upper portion of a body, still colorful and it was moving, sort of like it was trying to reach me. It seemed to be stuck and could not get more than it's shoulders out of the flowering area before it turned back into a flower. The human form came back again, and it seemed very interested in getting to me, it had a rather com...

Time is short, we are moving and existing in the wonderland of our minds, each of which gives access to experience in this life and it's dreams. This brain in time is not the source of your power, it is not the source of your life, but it is the one thing that connects you to this world. Without the structure of the clumped atoms that are inside your head there is no earth, no solar system, galaxy or universe. There is no way for your conscious energy to play out being this person trying to find the truth of existence. If you don't think that your human is trying to reach the truth, then you had better guess again. You are closest to knowing that this is what you are here for when you feel unaccomplished, like you are not striving towards your true goal, or that you are wasting time circling the same life pattern over and over again. The downward spiral which so often brings us to our lowest point in life can be used as a tool to thrust oneself into the business of knowing wha...

As of late, I have been thinking about a friend whose brother committed suicide and how their last conversation left my friend with a sense of responsibility. It made me think of the human condition and how much energy it takes to actually choose to stop being a person, then following through with that choice. I had contemplated the act many times as a young man between the ages of 15 and 25, but to actually commit to the act was a different level that I could not reach. Despite the awful experiences many people face and the sadness they feel at times, it is still an extremely difficult move to follow through with taking that action.  The act of suicide is never a split second decision, it is something that has been worked up to and it is a final move against the opponent that sits within your own mind. It seemed that my friends brother had an inner enemy which was a memory of abuse and the frustrations that would follow him up to his decision to stop facing that enemy living in...

Giving oneself over to faith is accepting a place in space and time as a body with a mind that links to everything, that is working at the will of the one that is the source and power in everything. To be all and nothing is both all power and no power, you must realize that the self is just one presence which is a present to yourself at the place of the beginning of all creation. At the birth of all time and space a creative mind was born and it has split into all dimensions, all times, all brains  all states of reality and dream. It has spread consciousness into everything equally because it takes power and creation to make the rock be a rock and for the void, where existence was placed, to be a void. You are that mind split, and as that mind you are able to assume a self separate from the source, but you stand at the source and everywhere in between. You have to be open to it all and you must be willing to give up this body to understand the connection between it and the source ...

We each have the power to activate thoughts, pull up memories and consciously move into dreams. As we push our minds in their abilities to deal with the strange and unusual, we are transforming the way we perceive the experiences of this reality and all possible dimensions of existence. Their are already more of you than you have imagined. Has anyone ever said that they saw you in a dream, have two people ever had two completely different dreams of you in one night? Consider that your conscious energy, your soul is stretched out in hundreds or thousands of directions, and you are connected to every version of you and living in every alternate reality that we understand as dreams. If you can know yourself as you, your dream selves, the versions of you that anyone else ever knows you as in their dreams, then you can begin to understand a slightly greater portion of what it may be like to hold the consciousness of that which is all and everything. Keep digging, go slow and don't lose...

The speed at which you can receive thought is where evolution is taking us, driven to be at the cusp of creative consciousness we push towards brain empowerment. We are moving towards empowerment on all levels of existence, and this power we have can be shared by everyone. It is not food based, it is not space or time based, it is consciousness based. Expand the minds of the people around you, accept their concepts and ideas and allow them to live their dreams as fully as possible. Our dreams and hopes can overlap in their differences, one persons desires need not make them your enemy when their world image differs from your own. Share atomic structure on more than one level of awareness and allow the rules of this world to help you play out your lives in peaceful harmony of an ever expanding human field of activity. We are to live in love while we act out our desires and we are to not impose upon others any control that hinders their wants and needs to the extent that they also not i...