About Five Minutes

 You are a beam of energy touching a ball of energy in a field of energy. As a mother you do not bring energy to this world, you open the door for your own energy to touch down in a separate form as an extension from your soul. You can feel the connection, but it is from a place that proves to be difficult for the human presence alone to understand. The issue is that we get so wrapped up in the form that we as individuals become forgetful of where we really are. When we connect our brain waves to the possibilities beyond the physical we can start to gain a sense of how soul actually works. We as families are one, we as a human race are one from one step deeper. There is a perspective that even allows the individuated awareness in a brain to sense the universe as one entity. We are all energy, we are all moving through layers of experience and as separate as we may feel, the connection is eternal. Whether it is human babies coming into the world through you, or it is any other form ...

 You can express your thoughts and feelings in easy tones. You can help people grow by surrounding them with positive reinforcement rather than negative consequences. Reward brings better results than punishment for people of all ages. The world is already harsh enough, we need not add stressors in order to encourage growth in the people we interact with. We can evolve every society through care and support. It starts everywhere and everyone must get involved. A country can be changed by bringing life supporting supplies which opens doors to ease of mind so the people can focus on mental development. We can use armed forces to protect food and building supplies that are being distributed to people in need across the globe for less than evey country has spent on bombing other countries into poverty. We can limit the gap in income and allow everyone the opportunity to earn enough money to have a nice, well kept place to live and health inspiring food on their tables. We can show our ...

 I have been inspired by many men in my life, from family members to those I never knew but who made me push my mind. I try to find a lesson through every person I meet, and there has been so much inspiration given to me by wonderful and wise women in my life, but right now I will stick with the men who have brought something memorable to my life. My father has taught me so much; from patience as he watched me work through my own mistakes, trying to give me guidance which I always accepted so slowly over time, rarely when it would have been the most useful. As I have watched him keep his body strong and able to play throughout his life, I learned that staying in good shape allows me to play at things that have brought me joy and energy since I was young; two wheeled toys are so much fun. I have also learned independence, which sometimes makes things harder, but keeps me working to always push myself to take on challenges. My uncles, which are varied and have been gifts stretched...

 Love includes every duality and beyond, light and dark, good and bad, happy and sad, ease or fear and anger. These are all part of the whole that is held within the layers of creation and existence; to have true love we must include and accept all. You are nothing if not the full form of being through all of your experiences. Since you chose to step out of the nothing into the layers of reality, then what can you do but love everything that you find in your little world. If one limits their love to this thing or that, this one not that, then they lose the ability to be never ending love. Sure if you are facing your lover you are happy and full of joy, but if the one you have deemed to be your enemy stands before you and you allow that to deplete your joy till you try to hurt them then you have stepped out of your eternal love. I dare you to turn to the one you have decided to call your enemy and thank them for the anger that rises up in you through their presence and then love th...

At this moment and for about a month something new is living within my body. It is amazing to consider how I have bacteria living in and on my body which are so many generations old that they go back to my birth. They were carried by my mother and were part of my initial colonization, little adventurers seeking to extend their lineage by being part of the world as Jason. It is doubtful that all the strains have survived, but there must be babies of babies so many generations back that make up my bodies current world.  The new resident that seems to have found a home within my skull is acting similar to other colonized creatures, in that it is not currently trying to kill me or make me feel bad in general. It seems to have found a hiding spot in some nasal cavity near my right ear; I say this because since it first entered I have had the almost continuous woosh of my blood moving through that ear. It is interesting to consider a small colony of this new resident living there, having...

 Death is a part of every life, either you are working your way to it or your working your way through a full life on the way to it. How you choose to live your life can have such an affect on what you get from living. I know the desire to sit and watch shows or just eat whatever junk food you can and then sleep, it is all so readily available. We can easily let the world spin as we quietly slip into death without leaving much behind for the people that remain. But the more you do the more stories you have to tell, and if you try to learn a little as you move through your activities the better prepared you will be to share something that others may be able to use down the road. Getting out there and doing things is also an amazing way to keep the body from deteriorating too fast and helps to retain muscle for better mobility as you age. Living to be an active person taking in experiences can bring you joy and pull wonder back into life. Start small, if you spent the last ten years ...

 As a portion of everything I recognize that I include light within the full spanse of my being and it helps to create the great layers of existence that are available for us all to be. But I am not fooled by what energy is and how the layers of experiential forms take on their own roll and follow individuated paths with light and dark moving through them. We are all a combination pack just by being. I am the deepest depth of non existence and I am all possibilities of whatever creative play can bring awareness to that point. As form I will find an end and decay will begin, if things go right the remains will be burned up and reconnected to the earth. If I end up being buried without extra chemicals being added that would be fine too, just for the clean earth connection. But along the way to that point I will experience life in many ways. My life has included cuts, bruises, broken bones and many different physical pains. I have felt depression, sadness, fear and everything that c...

 There is love pouring into all that is, everything is full of love. We are each born surrounded and infused with it, despite the earthly conditions we may be born into or live through. Love is always trying to reach into your awareness and works hard to slip past all the walls and voices we each have around our presence. There are ways people assume they can block the ever present love from someone else or even from themselves. There can be so many different ways to express denial of love and wreak various havocs over the landscape of existence. Despite love always being here in everything, we take on views of un-love and forget it is our job to recognize that we are each part of it and join in on just being an expression of it. It can be hard to take on the challenge of looking through the darkness surrounding a person or action when pain or suffering is caused to another or ourselves, but if you are accepting of your position in a world born out of a desire to exist and are part...

 When someone has hurt you, no matter the intention of the action against you, it can leave a scar like a brand that was placed on on your mind and heart. How long you focus on the brand determines how much of your life they took control of. The more you allow their actions to flow through your mind over time the more power they have over your heart and life even if they are unaware. Up to and after their death we might allow them to rule over our lives and drive our actions and the changes we make because of how much focus we put on what they did to us. In order to get our own power back we have to stand up in our hearts and minds and let them know that we are done giving in to their will and we are not going to focus on the little speck of energy they are in our lives. We can be bigger, more powerful and free of them 99% of the time and when our focus is on living in the beauty of the world that surrounds us now, then we have taken back our existence. Flashes of memory will tap a...

 I am The Order of Chaosians, we are in, of, and as the balance between all that is. There is nothing and everything, the layers of creation flow as both light and dark, excluding one is the absence of all. It is the order of consciousness driving through the layers of reality burning at awareness, hoping for the awakened mind to find the dream of reality moving as a portion of its being. As One we shall find it all, be at ease with everything and recognize eternal love everywhere. Join me in balance as we spread throughout awareness.

 Finding the path in your mind that will allow your consciousness to be aware of more than one possibility. Finding the power of your self within the mind you are tapped into on this earth in this space and time. How far back can you go, resetting a lifetime to experience other possibilities. Then looking forward from this moment and letting your imagination see and feel one, five, fifty or five thousand possible lifetime outcomes.  The options are endless if you can be aware of the fact that you are connected to a brain, drifting in outer space, living on a different planet, making different choices at age 8, 15, 19, 23 just to see what plays out. Finding that place in this brain where you can move through it all over a course of a night time's dreams, and eventually in a ten minute meditation.  Your brain has everything it needs to span the possibilities. Stretch and play with your imagination and dreams, be aware of all the options, your brain can imagine all, everythi...

 I've dealt with my inner demons, the first time that I met them I chased them down, kicked them around, and I tried to show them who was boss. After a while I realized that the energy I was using to try and get rid of them was going to waste, and too big an effort to keep up. I started to wonder what would happen if maybe I started to listen to them, and considered letting them guide me. So I started looking at myself from different angles and I began to recognize that the so called demons had always just been there. I saw them in things like, that inner rage that I carried through my childhood, and my desire for power and control that took me so long to recognize. There were many aspects of my life that slowly revealed the truth of a scary side of me.  Seeing all of this and trying to figure out how to deal with it, I found that I could express my inner evil through writing. I have written some harsh stories; most of which are in my first journal, "Where Faith Can Grow"...

 My journey has been and will continue to be guided by the source of being. I have been given gifts and more gifts by God and one of those is that I love all there is to be loved. Another gift is the patience to allow existence to work in, around and through me at the pace of itself. You see, I asked for something from God over thirty years ago, and I am still waiting to understand what it means to live that gift in love. God chooses time and recipients wisely, it is our job to wait for that wisdom to reach us. I say us because we are all connected. Your presence in my life is a part of my love, and I do cherish the gift you bring. Thank you for being a portion of the whole which we each hold within our body and soul. To fully understand that presence as one self within all that exists, that is a power unsurpassed. To love the freedom in allowing each portion to let go and let that power move through themselves without interference or to try their hand at controlling it, that is t...

 There are so many reasons to hate this world. There are the little things that can be frustrating and leave us questioning reason; like the actions of other people when they seem to be making choices out of ignorance. If we disagree with a political official or the education system it can make us angry at everything. Sometimes it is witnessing racism, class descrimination or other social injustice that we feel powerless against. With natural disasters wiping out homes, towns and even cities, it seems like the world itself is against us. We can find violence, pain, murder, and a continuous stream of death pouring across the Earth; all of which can make this place seem so unwelcoming and we may grow to despise everything. But I wonder over my focus, and consider the possibility of finding reasons to hate this place a little less. Is it what we are staring at that drives our attitude?  It is not good to pretend that none of the negatives in the world exist, because as long as an...

 The seasons of our world vary across it's vast surface, and each variety offers its own wonders. In some areas one may find a slowing down with snow, a rebirth with the rains, bright colors under the sun and then the pleasing coolness of cloud covered skies as leaves fall. While in other places there will be what may seem like a continuous sunny day all year round. As different as the valley can be from the mountain top, and the poles from the equator, so too the weather systems vary over the land and in its seas.  People also come with a variety of seasons; sometimes we are warm and sunny, inviting people into our moment with a smile. Other times we can be cold and rain down on the feelings or experiences of those around us. The way we interact with people can express the season of our emotional state, and often it will. But we can have emotions and still allow people to have their own experiences in any given moment that they find themselves, even when they are in our proxi...

My world is a state of awareness, it includes everything from experiences to the absence of being. In existence I love all action and absence of action, because it is all connected to me. On the Earth my conscious being seeks pleasurable interaction with it's surroundings, it  finds the greatest joy in a calm balanced environment. In loving all that comes to me, my love desires love in return. Every action is portion of the whole and can be loved for the experience it brings, but the action of love is the easiest to accept. Do your best to be love to me and I will do my best to be love to you. Together we will make calm balance.  Love, PEACE

 No matter where you are on your path, what you do with your path or how you try to trash your path, it is still your path and sometimes it walks you where you are supposed to be when you thought you were running away laughing. We are all striding down one path in particular, that is human life in the grand scheme, which currently includes birth, growing, aging and dying. I am intrigued by the whole life process, but where this path brings every form of life on the planet has been of particular interest to me since our family dog died when I was about seven or eight. Death of the earth form has been assumed to be the end all be all of our running away and of life itself. What if that point on the path of human life and death walks you to somewhere you never expected?  We live as human bodies, our skin and bones tell us that we are real, and our brain receives the signals from the rest of our body while also thinking deep searching thoughts. We go through the experiences of ...

The dynamics of the mind allow for consciousness to rest parts of the brain that are used to remain aware of this reality, letting go of control completely so the body is in charge of everything; the bladder, the bowels, keeping lungs breathing and the heart beating while we lay unaware. However advancing the power we hold over our minds we can open up more possibilities, in that we can lay aside half of our brain for the pleasure of dreaming worlds, creatures and imaginings of all sorts being wrapped into our awareness while remaining awake to the activities that this body is taking part in. The brains capacity for multilayered thinking is the goal at hand, the body has limits based on realities flow of energy, as created for this level of experiential play. These limits however are entwined within each of our minds.  Can the limits of flesh reality be overridden by awareness? We are energy, to be able to pour enough of ourselves into being energy, focusing on the movement of o...

Living things, dead things, living things. Sometimes, I feel a deep connection to the earth when I am cutting down a healthy tree. I try to use as much of the tree as I can for setting up a warm comfortable place that my family can connect in. Some of us eat as carnivores, vegetarians or any one of the many dietary types, and each is able to work with the environment in its  own way. Really it all comes down to being aware of what you are killing, why you are killing it, giving it as much respect as possible from its birth to its death. Treating anything that you are going to eat as if it is not worthy of a natural and life enriching environment depletes your power when you eat it because everything is tied into energy.  The energy that goes into the living thing that you are now about to eat goes into you. We all kill and we all eat life that has stopped living. You are a human on a planet, there are bugs and plants everywhere. Walk through a field and you can be pretty sure...

All my thanks to God. I am thankful for the love I know is always pouring over me. I am grateful for the ability to share that love, allowing it to pour out of me. I praise God for the points in existence where my love finds focus and knows giving. I am thankful for the experiences I receive on this earth. I am filled wth joy by the connections I have to all that God is, and the certainty I hold in my consciousness. I am thankful for the dawn, the day, dusk and the darkness of night. I am empowered by the balance I have found and there is great joy in me when I am aware of being. My praise seeks eternal expression, and I am at my best when I am letting love pour out of me. All my thanks to God. All my praise to Allah. All my love to Brahman.  Love, PEACE