About Five Minutes

 I get so angry at myself, I feel like I have taken too long and am losing power. My human form is moving through time and I have learned through example and experience that time can have an effect on the human body. I am trying to find pathways in consciousness to extend my own and every awareness deeper into the certainty of all we are and are capable of. I am seeking existence next to, but outside of time. Drawing life not from the body I am in at any given moment, but from being that which is beyond the brain and all that it can possibly be. Despite all my efforts I am still so often trapped in this body and brain, I cannot push out of the veil without great effort in focus or possibly returning to the assistance of entheogens. It is maddening to consider how long it has taken me to get this far and still feel stuck so often. I am excited however, to be reminded that I am on this course of possible evolution for a reward. That reward is figuring it out as I walk along so I mig...

I am the wave of light filling existence with energy. I am the darkness feeling my energy flow through me. There are no paths to walk on and there are no caves to hide in, there is me and I am. As I am so is every one, there is consciousness, and what you put your awareness into is where your consciousness will go. You are the edge of the universe, if you look out with your mind you can find it, if you look in with your mind you can find it. Know that within yourself you can find and know everything. Some can reach temporary understanding with hallucinogens, some with meditation and learning to relax the mind. Because in being able to calm your mind, and reaching that point of stillness of thoughts will allow you to realize that you are experiencing life from within the brain out to the body, not from the body in. When you realize this, you can learn to control what part of the brain is active and what is not. The mind has a flow which can be mapped, the movement of chemicals and ener...

I am trying, and I am trying to find the brain that allows many thoughts simultaneously and many waves of awareness. I am certain that the future holds it all available as reality, I am given glimpses and my hopes are floating in the clouds. I know it is coming, I see it through my soul, I know it is coming, but I must be calm and let it come as slow as it will. For my mind and body battle the knowledge of time and space, and they are vital warriors in existence. The mind itself is a landscape of moving energies, to dream in and out of being this one human while trying to be every other human I can be. I foresee death, the human body is frail at this level of being, but what if we can change the way it uses its atomic field. The mind is a space of energy waves passing atoms from point A to point B, you are able to become aware of this happening, because it is part of you. You are each point and you control how the energy travels in through the spaces. If you can slow your life down en...

When you realize that you are the first person in your life that you need to love, that is the moment that you will start to work in your best interest. We often spend so much of our lives seeking love from somewhere outside ourselves, and it can feel wonderful when we find someone who offers that, but it is not the love with the most power. When we love the person that we are, we open a door within that allows us to be the best person we can be, a person that can face every challenge.  We may find our soulmate, and it can be heaven on earth, a love that can carry us to the top of every mountain. However, if the connection fails to remain active between the two soulmates, then it can be devastating and that broken love may not carry you anywhere further than to being lost. A true love of the self that recognizes every flaw and all the perfection around each of those flaws is the most complete love at this level. If you can fully see yourself and still know that you deserve love,...

The possibilities that are available to your brain are so amazing and hard as heck to calculate. Every choice and breath can change the next moment as the layers of creation play out over the earth and around the multiverse. The lessons you hold within yourself, like mental games of change through teaching your mind to leave the straight path that the brain uses to conserve energy. Over a lifespan a brain will start by shooting signals a bit wildly through your neural network. Over time as you learn more,the brain finds the most fuel efficient routes around the brain and begins to use those the most. Like taking the highway instead of the back roads. You can choose to change the road your brain takes, and it begins by changing the way you think about using your brain. We often think of the brain as something that is controlling us, and I suppose for many of us that holds some truth, but we can take the reigns and drive it as we choose. Instead of thinking of the brain as something tha...

As one realizes that all power is a continuum stretching from out of the nothing through the source and the layers of reality into the conscious form, it becomes apparent that limitation is a one minded occurrence. Let go of the single self and be all selves. Reality and your dreams are constructed by your consciousness as the creator moving just beyond the limits of space and time tying the lines of the astral plane into your awareness. I stood in a room and watched as another form of myself built the world around me by organizing golden rods into the design of furniture, walls, images outside the window, etc. That form moved as fast as imagination allowed me to see it go. People have had visions of being a street, a wall ornament, a part of a sidewalk with a child treating them nicely. All of these visions are links into the self as everything, one portion of that is to realize that we are the layer of conscious energy that holds the framework of reality together. You are the person...

I decided to do a little Wim Hofing on my 15 minute break from work, I have one work at home day each week on Friday, so I was not doing this in my cubicle. I did the breathing and held my breath as recommended by Mr. Hof, and the first time I got the nice fresh feeling that often comes from this. The second time I reached the point of holding my breath I forgot that I was holding my breath. This happened because I became side tracked by an image in my view. A swirl of stars spun counter clockwise and within seconds I saw a flowering image of many colors in the center, it was like petals growing and unfolding until it changed into something else. It became the upper portion of a body, still colorful and it was moving, sort of like it was trying to reach me. It seemed to be stuck and could not get more than it's shoulders out of the flowering area before it turned back into a flower. The human form came back again, and it seemed very interested in getting to me, it had a rather com...

In God I find love, my existence is wrapped in it, my heart guides me to move with it and my mind works to follow it. In God I am free, I choose the path that follows God's love and in giving up to that flow I find no barrier standing in my way. There is no wrong choice as this love which is for all and everything puts only caring action in me, surrounds me with care in the presence of others, even if they do not know it. As I move along my path, a portion of the whole, I see the connection between myself and everything. It is when I allow the focus of my mind to try and push my hearts love to see less than all and everything, that action may become less than perfectly flowing in love. If we try to ego our way through things we flounder beneath the storms of desire. You  are a portion of the all encompassing love of God and you are the will that chooses the freedom of that love or to move with your own human desires. I assure you that your own human desires will be much more than r...

You are so much more than just this body, you are capable of accessing all the information in the universe. The human brain has the potential to change the world, we are going to rise above the limitations of this world and release ourselves from the shackles of physical need. Our conscious state is bridging gaps between what we have assumed that the mind can do and the true potential of what the mind is capable of. As I look out into the night, I see with three eyes, two physical and one made of imagination. There are so many layers to existence, close your eyes and let your connection between the brain and body slip away. As sleep releases the body-brain link some areas of the brain remain active and these parts of the brain are able to access eyes that are seeing and a body that lives in a different group of wavelengths which alter the experiences of how reality is playing out there. We can find ourselves in one of many different places, perceiving the separate realities as dream...

As of late, I have been thinking about a friend whose brother committed suicide and how their last conversation left my friend with a sense of responsibility. It made me think of the human condition and how much energy it takes to actually choose to stop being a person, then following through with that choice. I had contemplated the act many times as a young man between the ages of 15 and 25, but to actually commit to the act was a different level that I could not reach. Despite the awful experiences many people face and the sadness they feel at times, it is still an extremely difficult move to follow through with taking that action.  The act of suicide is never a split second decision, it is something that has been worked up to and it is a final move against the opponent that sits within your own mind. It seemed that my friends brother had an inner enemy which was a memory of abuse and the frustrations that would follow him up to his decision to stop facing that enemy living in...

Giving oneself over to faith is accepting a place in space and time as a body with a mind that links to everything, that is working at the will of the one that is the source and power in everything. To be all and nothing is both all power and no power, you must realize that the self is just one presence which is a present to yourself at the place of the beginning of all creation. At the birth of all time and space a creative mind was born and it has split into all dimensions, all times, all brains  all states of reality and dream. It has spread consciousness into everything equally because it takes power and creation to make the rock be a rock and for the void, where existence was placed, to be a void. You are that mind split, and as that mind you are able to assume a self separate from the source, but you stand at the source and everywhere in between. You have to be open to it all and you must be willing to give up this body to understand the connection between it and the source ...

We each have the power to activate thoughts, pull up memories and consciously move into dreams. As we push our minds in their abilities to deal with the strange and unusual, we are transforming the way we perceive the experiences of this reality and all possible dimensions of existence. Their are already more of you than you have imagined. Has anyone ever said that they saw you in a dream, have two people ever had two completely different dreams of you in one night? Consider that your conscious energy, your soul is stretched out in hundreds or thousands of directions, and you are connected to every version of you and living in every alternate reality that we understand as dreams. If you can know yourself as you, your dream selves, the versions of you that anyone else ever knows you as in their dreams, then you can begin to understand a slightly greater portion of what it may be like to hold the consciousness of that which is all and everything. Keep digging, go slow and don't lose...

Stepping over the edge as consciousness guides your mind into the multiple layers of reality, we slowly move our energy from wavelength A to B and then we look into C; realities overlapping with small shifts in perception separating all of them. Speeding at what feels like a billion miles per hour as the brainwaves switch from visual cortex A to B and then C, as the brain falls asleep and enters dream states while the portion of the visual cortex responsible for receiving the information coming from the eyes drops in activity. We find that the area of the brain that is responsible for interpreting what has come in is active and that we are able to see various realities with the mind that turns off one levels set of brain area functions to turn on another levels brain functions in those regions in another wavelength of existence. So, Jason part A falls asleep to find Jason part B when the frontal lobe, etc kicks in and another wavelengths eye signal receiver in the visual cortex turns ...

The speed at which you can receive thought is where evolution is taking us, driven to be at the cusp of creative consciousness we push towards brain empowerment. We are moving towards empowerment on all levels of existence, and this power we have can be shared by everyone. It is not food based, it is not space or time based, it is consciousness based. Expand the minds of the people around you, accept their concepts and ideas and allow them to live their dreams as fully as possible. Our dreams and hopes can overlap in their differences, one persons desires need not make them your enemy when their world image differs from your own. Share atomic structure on more than one level of awareness and allow the rules of this world to help you play out your lives in peaceful harmony of an ever expanding human field of activity. We are to live in love while we act out our desires and we are to not impose upon others any control that hinders their wants and needs to the extent that they also not i...

You are living in one amazingly well designed and built reality within the flowing energy of atomic structure, we like to call it the here and now. There are billions of layers of other structures created in and around it, some by master craftsman and some by fools. How much energy do we each have within us, how much power is waiting for us to tap into? You have dreams where you can practice multiple scenarios and then attempt to bring those ideas, images and creations back into this here and now, which is a well organized layer of energy that wraps space and time into the assumption of slow growth in existence. You are power and as that you are only hindered by your fear. If you have what you need to live, then work on your mind, keep your body fit and play with the energy that creates and moves through this field of experiences. We here on this earth know that manipulation and greed can push some people down through starvation, war and hatred built up in other people's minds. We...

You are everything and still you are nothing.  Your mind can reach all levels of being through dream, imagination and knowledge; there is nothing that can hold back the power you have available to you.  And still you only have so much control over any portion of this world or even a dream world and the people in it, there are currently limits in place that keep you from doing things like making people your puppets.  Your imagination has more control, but when it comes down to it, there is a balance that must be kept or even your imagination will be checked.  Look into everything, see everything, know everything, search under each stone, then realize that stone is simply an image for your mind to look under, placed there so as to add to the game of remembering what you are.   What you are is a mind assuming existence in any field you contemplate it being in; a mind that created itself, found itself forced into ignorance and is now trying to work its way closer t...

While I was in my vision of the colorful orb with tentacle beams of consciousness pouring out of it and skipping along the surface of what seemed like a dark landscape of nothing, I felt the idea that the Big Bang was originally an explosion of thought, and from there the physical Big Bang was born.  Within my mind I often circle around the words "we are the image of God", and my understanding of that phrase is an image of a conscious, creative force.  I have seen animations similar to the orb with tentacles, but seeing it and realizing it from within are two completely different experiences.  The animation I remember most clearly is a semicircle with pointed tentacles waving about; it was nice to look at, but my own vision came with emotional feelings and a sense of connection mingled with understanding.  I felt at one with it and as a portion of it simultaneously, and I am pretty sure that the image represents where we all exist, in a wave of consciousness pouring...

I saw consciousness pouring out of a colorful orb that was lit from the inside; it reminded me of an inverse view of the white field of light, which is usually see above me.  This orb was bubbling out of the ground, it was part of the ground and the pouring out of consciousness looked like tentacles of light stretching as tubular, dancing rainbows, spreading out till they touched down on the ground.  From within one of these colorful curved beams I got the sensation that the beam touched down over and over again, like a flat stone that is joyfully tossed over a body of water can skip before sinking in. Where the light touched the ground seemed to be from where I had just come, the meditating body was back there at that connection point not worrying about anything.   The skipping stone image made me think of our current human form and consciousness spreading into dreams.  The idea came to me while I was hanging in the beam halfway between the body and the orb, that...

Dream states are shifts in what we perceive based on our ability to receive more than one energy wavelength group through our consciousness.  We are made of energy particles that act like waves, they are the building blocks of what we experience and where it happens.  With an adjustment we can step into a state that may be very similar to reality; each state is truly its own reality being experienced by our conscious selves.  What we call dreams and hallucinations are each a different layer in a cake of multiple realities, some are sweet as frosting and some are dry and over cooked.  We are each a source of awareness that can stretch out in multiple streams, tapping into various wavelength groups to experience many realities, often without any of the forms being fully aware of the presence of their connection to one another.  Our dream body is a separate self that is usually not aware of the body that we leave lying in the bed sleeping, and often the body lying...

Moral order is set by the individual, every moment we are each making a decision as to what is acceptable in our actions.  These choices are not always what we would consider life changing, but they are life forming and lead us down a path of experiences that end with our last acceptable action in death.  Choosing acceptable actions is directly connected to accepting the actions themselves, as with death we must allow it to have its moment, and you need to take responsibility for the actions you choose.  You are responsible first to your own judgements, then to any judgement society places upon you if the people around you fall witness to your actions.  I wonder though, is there a way to move through life that overrides the actions of morality by placing something before each action?   Many people see morals from the vantage point of the physical body only, they even go as far as to put love in the physical, if I love you, then your body is mine and mine is y...