About Five Minutes

At this moment and for about a month something new is living within my body. It is amazing to consider how I have bacteria living in and on my body which are so many generations old that they go back to my birth. They were carried by my mother and were part of my initial colonization, little adventurers seeking to extend their lineage by being part of the world as Jason. It is doubtful that all the strains have survived, but there must be babies of babies so many generations back that make up my bodies current world.  The new resident that seems to have found a home within my skull is acting similar to other colonized creatures, in that it is not currently trying to kill me or make me feel bad in general. It seems to have found a hiding spot in some nasal cavity near my right ear; I say this because since it first entered I have had the almost continuous woosh of my blood moving through that ear. It is interesting to consider a small colony of this new resident living there, having...

 There is an awareness of existence deep within you, it plays out all your experiences, and all the possibilities of your varied choices are in that portion of yourself awaiting you to consider them. Seeking out an understanding of the actions and reactions of all you have done and what is going on in the space around you. How far back and how far forward in the movement of life that your awareness is able to take you can only be determined by your connection to knowledge and imagination, and I have one game that I do to try and grow in my connection to each. Let your grip on right here right now go for a few minutes, step back into the first memory that pops into your head, let it play out what happened over the next minute or two. Then rewind to the start of that memory and move forward with the intent of changing one action. What can you imagine happens over the next minute or two that is different because of that change? With practice you may be able to imagine whole different ...

 I get so angry at myself, I feel like I have taken too long and am losing power. My human form is moving through time and I have learned through example and experience that time can have an effect on the human body. I am trying to find pathways in consciousness to extend my own and every awareness deeper into the certainty of all we are and are capable of. I am seeking existence next to, but outside of time. Drawing life not from the body I am in at any given moment, but from being that which is beyond the brain and all that it can possibly be. Despite all my efforts I am still so often trapped in this body and brain, I cannot push out of the veil without great effort in focus or possibly returning to the assistance of entheogens. It is maddening to consider how long it has taken me to get this far and still feel stuck so often. I am excited however, to be reminded that I am on this course of possible evolution for a reward. That reward is figuring it out as I walk along so I mig...

 The love of existence is available for all and from the everything. I look out over a sea of experiential brains taking in scenes and worlds that allow me to imagine crossing the stronghold of the mind to soul barrier. Gurdjieff taps at the kundabuffer and a smile passes through me as I sense the code cracking and pieces falling away. My love walks in the world as I dream and push my mind's eye to the forefront of my being, the child is dancing with the children that it's adult brought into creation. They are one and absolute in their separate existence on every plane before, after and alligned with this the one. 

 There are moments when the world is pressing in on you, your thoughts circle around and your stress levels slowly eat away at your health. Stop letting that happen, there is enough in the world that is trying to kill you, no need in letting something work from your mind out. Stress is a tough one to figure out though, so I better get started. The easy way is to live a life that has less cause for stress; keep an easy going job, live below your means and do things that don't take too much difficult work. If you cannot do that, then let's hope there's a way to deal with stress. I have never been very good at dealing with stress head on, I often try to just let the world do its thing while I move around and do my thing. I put stressful situations behind me and forget they ever happened. If a stresser gets in my face too much, then I feel a great urge to step away from it. I assume that life does not have to be stressful, so why allow it to be. In dealing with stress tha...

It is hard to look at someone who seems to be acting out in a prejudice way and think that they deserve love. It is difficult to listen to language that speaks against another person or group and find care in your heart for the person behind the voice. It can feel like they are purposefully building walls to block you from having a view or opinion that is different from their own and to find a way to connect to one another. But as soon as you stop telling them your story and sharing your thoughts with them in a calm reminding way, then you are putting up walls too.  If you were taught that a certain group of people is less than you from your early childhood, then it will be difficult for you to change that belief without interacting with people that can open your eyes to a more balanced view. Sometimes a person with a prejudice towards a group of people will get to know someone from that group and they will learn to recognize their equality. But often it is their peers that will ha...

Mahatma Gandhi was quoted: "An eye for eye only ends up making the whole world blind. Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony. The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong. Where there is love there is life. In a gentle way, you can shake the world. The future depends on what we do in the present." This man is said to have had quite an affect on the world. It seems he got results through intelligent speach, peaceful protest, peaceful despite action taken against him and his community, and his own calm action.  On the other hand we see that wars have been waged for centuries, anger and violence poured out from one group to another; often leaving greater poverty in the wake of such actions. We are good at destroying each other with words and violent force, but it often destroys both sides in various ways. My faith lies in balance, intelligence and action that builds a world of peace around each of us as an individ...

Living things, dead things, living things. Sometimes, I feel a deep connection to the earth when I am cutting down a healthy tree. I try to use as much of the tree as I can for setting up a warm comfortable place that my family can connect in. Some of us eat as carnivores, vegetarians or any one of the many dietary types, and each is able to work with the environment in its  own way. Really it all comes down to being aware of what you are killing, why you are killing it, giving it as much respect as possible from its birth to its death. Treating anything that you are going to eat as if it is not worthy of a natural and life enriching environment depletes your power when you eat it because everything is tied into energy.  The energy that goes into the living thing that you are now about to eat goes into you. We all kill and we all eat life that has stopped living. You are a human on a planet, there are bugs and plants everywhere. Walk through a field and you can be pretty sure...

All my thanks to God. I am thankful for the love I know is always pouring over me. I am grateful for the ability to share that love, allowing it to pour out of me. I praise God for the points in existence where my love finds focus and knows giving. I am thankful for the experiences I receive on this earth. I am filled wth joy by the connections I have to all that God is, and the certainty I hold in my consciousness. I am thankful for the dawn, the day, dusk and the darkness of night. I am empowered by the balance I have found and there is great joy in me when I am aware of being. My praise seeks eternal expression, and I am at my best when I am letting love pour out of me. All my thanks to God. All my praise to Allah. All my love to Brahman.  Love, PEACE 

We each have the power to activate thoughts, pull up memories and consciously move into dreams. As we push our minds in their abilities to deal with the strange and unusual, we are transforming the way we perceive the experiences of this reality and all possible dimensions of existence. Their are already more of you than you have imagined. Has anyone ever said that they saw you in a dream, have two people ever had two completely different dreams of you in one night? Consider that your conscious energy, your soul is stretched out in hundreds or thousands of directions, and you are connected to every version of you and living in every alternate reality that we understand as dreams. If you can know yourself as you, your dream selves, the versions of you that anyone else ever knows you as in their dreams, then you can begin to understand a slightly greater portion of what it may be like to hold the consciousness of that which is all and everything. Keep digging, go slow and don't lose...

You are everything and still you are nothing.  Your mind can reach all levels of being through dream, imagination and knowledge; there is nothing that can hold back the power you have available to you.  And still you only have so much control over any portion of this world or even a dream world and the people in it, there are currently limits in place that keep you from doing things like making people your puppets.  Your imagination has more control, but when it comes down to it, there is a balance that must be kept or even your imagination will be checked.  Look into everything, see everything, know everything, search under each stone, then realize that stone is simply an image for your mind to look under, placed there so as to add to the game of remembering what you are.   What you are is a mind assuming existence in any field you contemplate it being in; a mind that created itself, found itself forced into ignorance and is now trying to work its way closer t...

So many people dive into trying the spirit medicines thinking a party is just around the corner, only to find that they have stepped into a world view changing landscape that overwhelms them.  Such a large portion of society is teaching children that all drugs are bad and equally destructive to their lives and the education stops there.  The tribe mindset is a life of developing an understanding for young tribe members of why some plants and chemicals may have more positive effects on the mind than others; as well as how the conscious self reacts to them, reducing the overwhelming effect when they first take an ancient medicine, not as a party, but as a tool for individual development.  The gains that are occurring in raising awareness of the differences between certain kinds of drugs are amazing, I love to see the knowledge unfold.  When comparing things like LSD or mushrooms with heroin or cocaine, this growth in awareness will help guide the future choices made b...

Moral order is set by the individual, every moment we are each making a decision as to what is acceptable in our actions.  These choices are not always what we would consider life changing, but they are life forming and lead us down a path of experiences that end with our last acceptable action in death.  Choosing acceptable actions is directly connected to accepting the actions themselves, as with death we must allow it to have its moment, and you need to take responsibility for the actions you choose.  You are responsible first to your own judgements, then to any judgement society places upon you if the people around you fall witness to your actions.  I wonder though, is there a way to move through life that overrides the actions of morality by placing something before each action?   Many people see morals from the vantage point of the physical body only, they even go as far as to put love in the physical, if I love you, then your body is mine and mine is y...

How does a person show everyone else in the world what the gift of living here and now, on this earth, in this universe on this astral plane is worth?  Jesus spoke the truth until the leaders of his world could no longer ignore him and he used them to help him express his unending love for this existence to the point of death.  Buddha starved himself and pushed himself to the edge of life before he realized the value of his time on this earth, then he shared his good news with everyone he could, and he died with people listening so intently that his words have travelled centuries.  Siddhārtha Gautama, the Buddha was a wealthy man who had the easy life bowing before him, but his greatness didn't come until he decided to give up the wealth and find the meaning of existence.  Jesus asked people to give up everything and follow him.  They each chose paths which would both teach themselves and set examples of how this world can be experienced as a joy through ever...

The development of love is very interesting to observe in oneself and others.  We start out very self centered but we know very little of loving ourselves, as children we seem to point all our love at our family, parents, siblings, etc.  we don't know why, it is just there and it is usually everything to us.  Then when a certain spark hits the heart and mind our love becomes interested in someone outside our family, and it feels different because it is outside.  Family love would break our hearts when we felt disappointed by a parent, or we would be devastated by the death of a grand parent, but we are still focused on ourselves and our own satisfaction.  The love for the outsider mingled with the twinge of desire becomes focused, often to point where we do as much as we can to make them happy, and we hope the same is done in return.  For many of us there is still a self centered aspect of this early love and we do not always step beyond this point; at thi...

We are a multi-layered, multi-dimensional, multi-brained being living as separated souls that are further broken out into forms for taking in all and everything.  You are one of those forms.  Your brain can reach a level of activity that allows you to know the experiences of the all and everything.  First you can be aware of all that your soul understands through access to its many forms, including the one you are using right now.  Then as soul you could choose to awaken every form you are poured into, but perhaps it is best that each should become aware at its own time.  After your brain gains even just a portion of this access you will very likely start to find life to be an experiential joy.  You will find that from soul you can turn further in towards the source of being, the birthplace of this all and everything you are learning to embrace.  You may end up next to a wall or ball of light, there may even be a gender-less creator figure, and around...

Love is a boat and your partner is working with you to build and maintain that vessel.  Often we will be building up the walls with one person and suddenly they will tear a hole in one side and the boat will start to sink and crash like the SS Minnow from Gilligan's Island.  When someone does that a little work may patch the side and the boat will float on strong, but other times they may decide not to help fix the boat and any effort you put into it will be lost.  Then you are either stranded or you build yourself a little raft to set off again riding the seas alone.  Under your own power you may find that you can build your raft up to a ship and you can sail strong and true through the storms and the calm.   On your ship you will see more clearly and you will be able to know with more certainty the strength and durability of the next ship and captain that sails up along side you requesting a day together at the next sea port.  If they are worthy you will...