About Five Minutes

The rocket ship I have been flying in since I was a kid is made of brain matter, sometimes it is a ship taking me to distant planets, then other times it is a brain growing in understanding its own workings and the extensions of itself into this body who's fingers I see typing in front of me. Sometimes the workings of this brain leaves me feeling like I am no longer part of it and that I could just let it go. The sense of separation from self can leave a person wondering about the validity of carrying on in this form, but from experience, I have found that this form is the most intricately wired piece of machinery you can find. The cost of using it is a lifetime of experiences, which is also the reward in the end. There is an end, this body you are using to read these words with is really hard to make eternal, so there is a large percentage of a chance that your conscious self will leave it behind at some point. If you consider rushing it to its end, then you are giving up chasing

Fear lies at the base of my skull, then my skull is removed by a machine, my, skin, bones, organs right down to my lungs and my heart are separated from the nervous system until that is all that remains. The popping sound as my skull is separated is faint, like I am hiding from the experience; too much for the mind to take, but what else can the mind do when everything is gone but itself and the nervous system floating in a tank. Let's go back a bit in my dream; the first sensation is of time spanning in every direction and I can jump into any reality (dream/trip state) I choose, but only because of the energy connected to the dream tool I inhaled a minute earlier; and it seems to know that I am not ready to have all that power on my own. So, as I contemplate where and how I would use the ability to be all and everything Jason would choose to be at his will, I am pulled back and I find this little single form barely holding onto the memory. The mind is pushing so hard, trying to

Giving oneself over to faith is accepting a place in space and time as a body with a mind that links to everything, that is working at the will of the one that is the source and power in everything. To be all and nothing is both all power and no power, you must realize that the self is just one presence which is a present to yourself at the place of the beginning of all creation. At the birth of all time and space a creative mind was born and it has split into all dimensions, all times, all brains  all states of reality and dream. It has spread consciousness into everything equally because it takes power and creation to make the rock be a rock and for the void, where existence was placed, to be a void. You are that mind split, and as that mind you are able to assume a self separate from the source, but you stand at the source and everywhere in between. You have to be open to it all and you must be willing to give up this body to understand the connection between it and the source of e

Dealing with depression and feelings of low self worth slows time and creates a vacuum of negativity around you. The imbalance of chemicals in the brain can make it seem like there is nothing worth even moving for. We are not born to be enslaved by our feelings or even the chemicals flowing in and around our neurons. We are made to be in control of our minds, this tool you are using to read these words has been the seat of your consciousness for your entire life. As a child were you filled with sadness, did sadness and grief start to invade your thoughts at a certain point? Think through your history and search out when and where the change took place, consider what was going on in that time in your life. Was there a trigger?  Finding the root may take a while, but it will point you to the first thing to change. You must learn to control your mind and what it thinks, we assume too often that it is running its own course willy nilly and we are just supposed to deal with what it brings