About Five Minutes

 I've dealt with my inner demons, the first time that I met them I chased them down, kicked them around, and I tried to show them who was boss. After a while I realized that the energy I was using to try and get rid of them was going to waste, and too big an effort to keep up. I started to wonder what would happen if maybe I started to listen to them, and considered letting them guide me. So I started looking at myself from different angles and I began to recognize that the so called demons had always just been there. I saw them in things like, that inner rage that I carried through my childhood, and my desire for power and control that took me so long to recognize. There were many aspects of my life that slowly revealed the truth of a scary side of me.  Seeing all of this and trying to figure out how to deal with it, I found that I could express my inner evil through writing. I have written some harsh stories; most of which are in my first journal, "Where Faith Can Grow"...

 There are many avenues into the layers of consciousness that open our minds to the greater potential of our being at ease in the world. Some have the door opened once and are able to walk through their life with that single experience guiding their heart and mind for an entire lifetime, without ever stepping over the line into mystical awarenesses again. Then there are others that find themselves able to swing the door open freely, finding the avenue to alternative thinking easy to access and walk in and out of the layers of awareness throughout their lives, being reminded regularly of the possibilities beyond the here and now. And still another group chooses to not open the door for themselves and it never fully opens on its own, they are content in the act of just being as they are. Life is as it is for those who choose this path and there is no need to dig beyond the inspiration recieved by the stories of the ones who have shared their understanding of the layers of existence. ...