Frustrated me
I get so angry at myself, I feel like I have taken too long and am losing power. My human form is moving through time and I have learned through example and experience that time can have an effect on the human body. I am trying to find pathways in consciousness to extend my own and every awareness deeper into the certainty of all we are and are capable of. I am seeking existence next to, but outside of time. Drawing life not from the body I am in at any given moment, but from being that which is beyond the brain and all that it can possibly be. Despite all my efforts I am still so often trapped in this body and brain, I cannot push out of the veil without great effort in focus or possibly returning to the assistance of entheogens. It is maddening to consider how long it has taken me to get this far and still feel stuck so often. I am excited however, to be reminded that I am on this course of possible evolution for a reward. That reward is figuring it out as I walk along so I mig...